i wish you had led with that

You: Is that okay?
Me: It’s kind of too late if it’s not, right?
You: lol
Me: *silence*

Ever have someone tell you a fact that would have influenced your initial decision but by then its too late? It sucks!

I’m not very good at pretending to like people I hate. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a decent liar and depending on the circumstance I usually feel very little to no guilt. I just can’t hide my disdain or my mood when I hate someone. So my strategy has always been to avoid people I don’t like and for the most part it works. My excuses are usually lame but it’s still better than the fake smile and holding back the eyeroll as I try to pretend to enjoy a conversation.

So now I’ve agreed to go on a weeklong holiday only to find out that the person I can’t stand is also going along. The cost of the trip is well worth forfeiting for the pleasure of not being around this person I can’t stand. I just need to come up with a lame excuse that works.

For future reference when organising a trip, make sure you know who is going and don’t go with people who have a habit of iniviting people as you go along in the organising process.


i’m a gorgeous prude

And it turns out I’m actually kind of a bitch
But that only happens when I get provoked
By some piece of shit asshole we all sadly know

I’m all for the legalisation of pot, I do think that there are benefits and the arguments are mostly valid. I just don’t particularly think it’s cool to be stoned any more than I think being drunk is cool. I don’t feel the need to view my life through the haze of a mind-altering drug to make it more enjoyable, so when I see other people doing so it makes me sad. Frankly, it wasn’t cool or badass when I was 21, and somehow that hasn’t changed now that I’m 30. I also had neighbours who smoked pot and it stank, so I’m not sure why I would get myself into potentially another situation where I would have to put up with the smell! Whereas I think alcohol can at least taste good and has the benefit of hydration.

Apparently he also hasn’t heard about the rumour that there is a possible link between prolonged marijuana usage and erectile dysfunction. How’s that for being shocked about sex!

redefining insanity

This is a political choice that we make to allow this to happen every few months in America. We collectively are answerable to those families who lose their loved ones because of our inaction.

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and somehow expecting a different result. America’s response to every mass shooting is just that. Let’s lay down some flowers, mourn, send condolences and pray. President Obama just delivered a speech that said it all: “our thoughts and prayers are not enough” and that everyday Americans should be “answerable to those families”. America needs to realise that they are complicit in every shooting by not demanding change. With all the evidence that points towards stricter gun laws resulting in fewer deaths related to gun violence, how does a statistic like 45 mass shootings so far this year even occur? The fact that there is an international standard for mass shootings, defined by 5 or more deaths, is atrocious.

Having Donald Trump run for president is embarsssing, but having 20 children gunned down in an elementary school and not making any changes is far worse. The world is changing, and soon America will have to wake up. Because when you read news reports about kids accidentally shooting their parents or worse themselves how can you not think this is “natural selection at its finest”.

so quotable

I will think how to live with the new reality and try to come up with a fix.

I received this email today and it seriously made my day. It’s the best work email I have ever received.

34 out of 52: A Walk into the Woods

I was beginning to appreciate that the central feature of life on the Appalachian Trail is deprivation, that the whole point of the experience is to remove yourself so thoroughly from the conveniences of everyday life that the most ordinary things— processed cheese, a can of pop gorgeously beaded with condensation—fill you with wonder and gratitude.

Put simply I’d describe it as a masculine version of Wild – Bill Bryson’s trek on the Appalachian Trail (AT). Without the sex and depression. And without the solitude, because a lot of the journey is revolved around his friend Katz and the trouble they get into. If you have read any of Bryson’s books you’ll know what to expect. His sense of humour is evident in the way he describes his experiences as a novice hiker. There were so many times where I literally laughed out loud while reading this book. He also clearly appreciates history and you can see that in the way he goes into detail about the construction of the trail and its reconstruction and preservation over the years. I have been on sections of the AT so recognising the names of the places he stopped at were also a real thrill for me. He so perfectly captures those moments that hikers appreciate that it made me wish I was off on the trail again.



why would you stop now?

Rolling on dear river does it end
I saw you through the canyon and the bend
Did you look back for me

Inertia. Maybe you’ve heard of it. It describes the tendency of objects to keep moving in a straight line at a constant velocity until some force causes its speed or direction to change. I feel like that is how we all live our lives. We’re all waiting for that force that pushes us off our current course. Currently I’m in a state of chaos, tiredness and overscheduling. I’m just waiting for a force to come along that will just make me stop.

There’s this theory that if you aren’t getting enough sleep you should try and get even less sleep. I am considering trying this method simply because I have been functioning on very little sleep these days and I think my body is becoming accustomed to it.

It started out to be like I was going to have an early night. It was the World Accordion Festival, how nuts could it get? It ended with standing in line at midnight for ice cream, that’s how we roll.

those four walls

Those four walls now are the only place that I can breathe out
And those four walls now are home
Those four walls now are the only place that I can feel
Those four walls now are home

You don’t really appreciate how small a place is until you put people into it. And you really don’t appreciate walls until you have something you need to separate yourself from. That is how I currently feel and it hasn’t even been one full day with my mother and my aunt.

Integrity is who you are when no one is watching. And I am not ashamed of the life I live. But put some people into my space and I realise that there is no room in that life for other people. There are just not enough walls. I really hated it when someone at work described me as “territorial”. I have now decided to own up to it because I love my space. The freedom I have to live a certain way or do a certain project without judgment or interference is exactly what I need in life.

I wanna make you feel how I feel when I’m listening to love songs
I wanna take you to the peak of everything that you are

tonight we leave

If you had the choice of knowing of what day you were going to die would you want to know?

I would. I have always been the kind of person who wants to know when the deadline is because that is when all the work gets done. We all live for the future payout, but what if we never end up seeing the gains? What is the point of saving for retirement if you never retire? What is the point of having children if you die before they are old enough to remember you? What is the point of dieting if you never reach your goal weight?

I’ve known this day was coming for months and being here doesn’t make it easier. It’s difficult losing a friend to timezones and distance. If you have to say goodbye you might as well have a banquet, Queen of the Night style.

Queen of the Night is similar to Sleep No More in that they are both of the immersive theatre style where each individual has a different experience. In Queen of the Night though you are given a lot more context. The idea is that the queen is throwing a banquet for her daughter to become a “woman” and you are a guest. As a guest at the banquet you get to experience the food and the entertainment – fire breathing, acrobats and aerialists. You also don’t have to follow the actors around like in Sleep No More. But you still get to wander around the setting and the actors still interact with you.



He was hot...


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